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    December 06

    今夜无心睡眠

    又过了半学期了吧,最近心里一直郁闷,不知道自己为什么那么不争气,什么事情都办不好!
    听着音乐,不知不觉想睡觉了,嘿嘿。
    我累了吗?
    没有干什么事情怎么会累呢?
    整天都是那副死样子,真受不了自己,有些事情不想做,又必须要做,有些事情想做,却没时间做(又在找借口)!!
     
        ……
     
    抽着烟,看着电脑,拼命得想我是怎么样一个人,可就是想不出来,那些话就是说不出来!想起来我总说的一句话:无奈充斥着我的大脑!!!
    我不想评论社会,因为我没有资格;
    我不想说别人,因为我都没有看清自己;
    我不想看清自己,因为,因为所以,自有道理!!
     
    听同寝地说,我晚上睡觉的时候总是发出一种很奇怪的声音,低沉的吼叫,可能有点夸张,只能说吼,就像那种压抑的时候发出的郁闷的呻吟!
    我怎么一次都没听见呢?他们说我睡着了,当然听不到!是啊,我肯定听不到,我在做梦,我在梦中……
    现在的我就像是活在梦中,没有努力的力气,没有醒来的决心……就连哭泣的权利也没有,我也不想哭泣啊,但是,不知道是什么压着我,让我感到窒息,让我不能看清我前面的路
                                        为什么不压死我??
    我的被子也不是很沉啊,反倒是特别的轻,不是被子,那会是什么呢?         
    辈子吗?
    “这辈子活到现在了,我一直很快乐啊,我总是在笑啊,没有什么难倒我的啊!”这可能是我第一次遇到挫折时候说的话!
    现在我怎么能说这句话呢,我已经被打倒了!却不知道什么给我打倒了!
    你看了,你不郁闷吗?
    杨阳,你真是个懦夫
                                           我            呸……

    I will come to you

    When you have no light to guide you
    And no one to walk beside you
    I will come to you
    Oh I will come to you
    When the night is dark and stormy
    You won't have to reach out for me
    I will come to you
    Oh I will come to you
    Sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days
    When you don't know how or why, but you've lost your way
    Have no fear when your tears are fallin'
    I will hear your spirit callin'
    And I swear that I'll be there come what may
     
    Cause even if we can't be together
    We'll be friends now and forever
    And I swear that I'll be there come what may
    When the night is dark and stormy
    You won't have to reach out for me
    I will come to you
    Oh I will come to you
    We all need somebody we can turn to
    Someone who'll always understand
    So if you feel that your soul is dyin'
    And you need the strength to keep tryin'
    I'll reach out and take your hand